I’ve let myself go..but I have accomplished one thing which I am very proud of. I’m clean.
5 months clean for me is like the biggest thing I’ve done since graduating high school!!
I know that it doesn’t seem like that long.
but for me it’s felt like an eternity.
And as a result of being clean off of stimulants..I’ve become pretty attached to food.
I’m bigger than I was before when I thought I was at my biggest.
What I’m trying to say is that I’m miserable.
I may be clean but my health is at stake. I’m scared and I know that I’m not supposed to be like this. It’s hard because I want to be motivated to stay clean/healthy but when you don’t have enough good food in the house or you have no money..it’s tough to say no to a $1.00 burger and fries.
I’m whinning and I know the struggle is real but, it’s time to get serious like for real this time.
So..once again. I’m gonna do my best to stay on track. stay healthy/clean and push myself out of my comfort zone..because if I can get addicted to drugs..I can just as easily get addicted to the gym. hopefully.
And this will be my outlet. Tumblr, you haven’t let me down yet. You are my way of flittering through my emotions. I love you.
That’s pretty much it.